yep.
that's what i'm feeling right now.
my works are in my IN tray and my school works are in my bag.
but can't give time for them, not right now.
i'm busy being lonely.
have a chat with myself (u should try that too. u need a mirror at first, but eventually u don't. :P)
my devil and angel are fighting furiously.
i don't know who will win at the end.
but so far, its a draw.
in the past, devil usually wins.
my friends and ppl who know me used to say that i'm very non-judgemental.
hey.......its only because i don't even like myself. who am i to judge others.
and ....one more thing...why do i even bother?
i'm not getting paid :P
i'm the anti-thesis of moral beacon :))
i'm the perfect specimen for juvenile deliquent.
i'm definitely more than meet the eyes ( not Optimus Prime, Megatron mayb)
i just follow whatever i crave for at the very present.
i believe in Karma too. so may be i'll become some kind of lowly creature in my next life.
or someone whom everybody hates.
i'm both lonely and alone(literally)
can't sleep well last night. had nightmares.
in it, somebody is blaming me for something horrible. i tried to explain.
than i become other person. then nobody recognize me as me.
when i woke up, i feel like someone took out even single thing in my stomach and my chest.
if u know what i mean.
that's pretty bad feeling, yes?
its even worse than having to run and run and fall suddenly in ur dreams( hta min lone ta say chout)
now ......i'm alone,cold,hungry,afraid,depressed.............
Oh...now i know why.............its MONDAY!
heeee
take care u guys
;)
6 comments:
Hi Su,
Your post is kind of worried me. I would like to get to know you a little more may be i can offer some help. Please tell me a little more about your self.
Are you still in love with some one that you should not be? I am just throughing it out there.
S...
YES!
i'm in deep shit.(pardon my language).
but i don't usually ask for help.
thanks, S.
nice to know there's someone who cares.
:)
What kind of shit? It is OK we are all adult here you can say any thing you want.
I don't like asking for help either so we are pretty compartible. You can tell me except I can't promise not to tell. This is after all is Aung Kyaw Moe's websit and he should be the last person on this earth trust to keep secret.
S...
Hi S,
why do u say that?
Aung was my research partner. we did some graduate courses together in NYU.
he's the funniest guy i ever met.
and he's a top notch poet.
most of the poet i know don't like to talk about other ppl :)
and him being a poet is enough for me to trust him.
Hi Su,
Didn't know that he is a poet better yet top notch.
I a gree he is very funny.
I was just joking about Aung couldn't keep a secret.
Oh. Ok.
So may be the Aung u know is different from the Aung i know.
u do ask a lot about me S
where r u from?
where r u now?
what r u?
what do u do?
i don't even know if u r a male or female.
do tell smth 'bout urself.
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