IF

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

by Rudyard Kipling

KISS ME GOODBYE

We choose it without music
Love is never quite the same
I love you now I've lost you
Don't feel bad, you're not too blame

So kiss me goodbye and I'll try not to cry
All the tears in the world won't change your mind
There's someone new and she's waiting for you
Soon your heart will be leaving me behind

Linger a while and I'll go with a smile
Like a friend who just happened to call
For the last time pretend you are mine
My darling kiss me goodbye

I know now I must go now
Though my heart tells me to stay
That girl means your tomorrow
I belong to yesterday

So kiss me goodbye and I'll try not to cry
All the tears in the world won't change your mind
There's someone new and she's waiting for you
Soon your heart will be leaving me behind
Linger a while and I'll go with a smile
Like a friend who just happened to call
For the last time pretend you are mine
My darling kiss me goodbye
My darling kiss me goodbye
Goodbye

LIFE!

Life is a challenge, meet it !
Life is a duty , complete it !
Life is a game, play it!
Life is costly , care for it!
Life is wealth , keep it!
Life is a mystery , know it!
Life is a love, enjoy it!
Life is a promise , fulfill it!
Life is sorrow , overcome it!
Life is a song , sing it !
Life is a struggle, accept it!
Life is a tragedy, comfort it !
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it!
Life is a beauty , admire it!
Life is a bliss, taste it!
Life is a dream , realize it!
Life is an adventure, dare it!
Life is luck , make it!
Life is too precious , do not destroy it!
Life is life, fight for it!
(Mother Theresa)

Arthur de Pins

http://www.arthurdepins.com/odrozfilm.htm He's my current obsession. o so cute characters and funny animations lovvvvvveeeee him. and hey...he's french and only 29 :P ppppeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrfect!

They Said

Hey,
A Burmese is A Burmese is A Burmese.
He should love his country, stay in his country, and she should be his final resting place.
For whatever the reason he is in a foreign country, he shall be coming back to her.
NEVER shall he embrace the citizenship of a foreign country for some benefits.

by "U Thant"-UN Secretary General(1961-1971)

"MY PRAYER" BY ETHEL JENKINS

O God.
You have shown the seeds of love in my heart
But I have not watered it with my tears.
Lord forgives.
You have shown me hungry children
And I have fed only my friends
Lord forgives.
You have shown me the homeless
And I have cared only for my own home-
Lord forgives.
You have shown me the wounded
And I have been only conced with my only pain
Lord forgives.
You have shown me the friendless
And I have nurtured my own friendships-
Lord forgives.
You have shown me the bereave
And I have sought out others to comfort me-
Lord forgives.
You have shown me those who do not know your love and I have failed to share that which you have given me-
Lord forgives.

Sharing ( my therapist told me it should do good, dunno why )

Hi world.

i'm suffering from caffine withdrawal syndrome.
trying to stay away from it on Monday ( oh gosh, MONDAY , people. i didn't drink coffee on MONDAY).
so, feeling like a depressed mole deprived of prozac
dun wanna work.
so what do i do?
surf the net, ofcourse.
heee
come across some interesting things
here's the link for u to enjoy like me ;)

www.platinumocean.com
www.electric-escape.net/node/1475
www.freeple.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2007/06/image0011.jpg

What am i ? half horse half human?

Sagittarius

Turn ons

Sagittarius is ba sically a happy go lucky kind. You can enjoy with their zest and enthusiasm in life.
They can bubble with excitement that can be tangible at times. And if you share same interests and hobbies
then life can be great fun together.
They are frank and straightforward so if you want some truthful opinion about anything or anyone goes to them.
Be optimistic as they are and view life as glass half full.

Turn offs

Sagittarius is fiercely independent and cannot tolerate restriction hence do not try to hold them back in life.
Let them enjoy their freedom because if you hold any special place in their heart they will always come back for you.
Do not feel irritated by the exaggeration in their speech.
They may go on and on talking about certain things that may not even interest you but it is their way of trying to communicate with you. They are basically frank and outspoken (to the point of being rude) so do not feel offended by their talks.

Yes. I'm a Sagi. :P

I Cry,

Every night
I find it so hard to sleep
Cause I keep thinking of you
And these feelings from deep
Oh baby I try to hide all these feelings for you
I keep them all out of sight
I don't know what else to do
So I cry
But nobody hears me
I cry
It's my only solution
I cry
To all this confusion
I cry
With all of my heart
I cry
Sometimes I wonder in the blink of a night
Would you be waiting to love me
Would you give it a try
I don't know how it's to show you
That I'm not good be rea
lI'll be eternally faithful
Forever I feel
So I cry
But nobody hears me
I cry
It's my only solution
I cry
To all this confusion
I cry
With all of my heart
I cry
No one can tell me that
I may be wrong
Cause I know in my heart
This feeling still running strong
Can't get you out of my head
Can't get you out of my heart
Can't get you out of my life
No matter it fell apart

Yuri Chika.

I'm only, lonely

yep.
that's what i'm feeling right now.
my works are in my IN tray and my school works are in my bag.
but can't give time for them, not right now.
i'm busy being lonely.
have a chat with myself (u should try that too. u need a mirror at first, but eventually u don't. :P)
my devil and angel are fighting furiously.
i don't know who will win at the end.
but so far, its a draw.
in the past, devil usually wins.
my friends and ppl who know me used to say that i'm very non-judgemental.
hey.......its only because i don't even like myself. who am i to judge others.
and ....one more thing...why do i even bother?
i'm not getting paid :P

i'm the anti-thesis of moral beacon :))
i'm the perfect specimen for juvenile deliquent.
i'm definitely more than meet the eyes ( not Optimus Prime, Megatron mayb)
i just follow whatever i crave for at the very present.
i believe in Karma too. so may be i'll become some kind of lowly creature in my next life.
or someone whom everybody hates.

i'm both lonely and alone(literally)
can't sleep well last night. had nightmares.
in it, somebody is blaming me for something horrible. i tried to explain.
than i become other person. then nobody recognize me as me.
when i woke up, i feel like someone took out even single thing in my stomach and my chest.
if u know what i mean.
that's pretty bad feeling, yes?
its even worse than having to run and run and fall suddenly in ur dreams( hta min lone ta say chout)
now ......i'm alone,cold,hungry,afraid,depressed.............
Oh...now i know why.............its MONDAY!
heeee
take care u guys
;)

The Bitch is Back ( not dead yet)

Hi World,

eating disorder is back i think.
i used to be anorexic bulimic
when those psych type say its because of ur mental situation, can't agree more.
trust me, i don't have any image problem.
may b i don't like my inner me that much, but my outer me works just fine for me.
but everytime i'm stressed out over something, be it work, school or relationship, i tend to turn into self-destroying method.
i tried cutting b4.doesn't work for me. coz i get dizzy at the sight of blood. haha. must be related to Joan of Arc in previous life or smth :P
so scare of blood that i never even donated blood.
oh no. not never. only once. when my first boyfriend told me that he collect those pins that u got when u donate blood, i did donate blood very bravely because i want to give him that pin as a present. heeeeee. i'm such an idiot, ain't i?
ok ...back on track. so i ain't become a cutter luckily ( i hate those scars too)
so i become a bruiser. i punch the wall and most of the time my knuckles are swelling. :P
then i found a perfect way of selfdestroying method
eating disorder.
avoid as much as u can, and when u can't avoid eating ( family reunion dinner, ur granny's birthday)
purge it out :)
i'm not promoting it. but i must admit, the mini-high i get from purging food out is a little addicted.
it lasted about a year or so. and i lost 30 lbs. my family started to wonder what's wrong with me.
they did a medical chk up on me, but at that time, 12 years ago, eating disorder is not even a formal diagnosis, i think.
so i got over my first wave of A&B( anorexic, bulimic) period.
i did have some relapses. but only for a short while so not so obvious on my physical.
but now..........things starting to get complicated, and the bitch is back
i don't know what to do. in fact i just finished purging out my whole dinner.
if i look on a bright site, well.........may b i'll lose weight :D
sorry to make ur days worse.
may be i'll take down this post some day, but for now please let me indulge in my stupidity.

To Kill A Mockingbird

I'd like to apologize to Harper Lee for stealing the name of her masterpiece.
what to do. its apt to use it for this idle tapping away on the keyboard of my book.
what do you do when u become too stressed and you starting to phase out, resisting to listen to your gray matters?
I must admit that I'm a recreational drug user. Sometimes, booze works just fine. but I just can't gain an acquire taste for booze yet. so I'm still stuck with good, ol' Mary Jane . HAHA
Ok. here goes.....
how far will you go to do the things that you feel that its right for you or your society ?
how far will you go to indulge in your fantasy?
how far will you go to hide your ugly secrets?
how far will you go to keep your conscience clean?
how far will you go to fight for what you believe in?
how far will you go to materialize your dreams? ( sometimes dreams can be ugly too , i'm not talking about nightmares)
how far will you go to maintain your dignity?
how far will you go to make someone you love happy?
how far will you go to become just a tiny bit better person than you already are?
how far will you go make your existence in this world more meaningful?
how far will you go to show other ppl that you are worthy?
how far will you go to quench your urges?
how far will you go to protect what you hold dearly and near to your heart?
how far will you go to be the best in that little pond you are dwelling now? ( pun intended)
how far will you go to prove yourself to other ppl ?( they always say they don't care, but in the end, almost all the things they do are just to prove themselves to other ppl )
how far will you go to gain peace of mind?
how far will you go to be who you (and others) believe you are?
...................
how far will you go kill a mockingbird?

what i need

what i need to be happy now are
~something to do
~something to love and
~something to hope for

still looking for those things, so i'm quite not being able to happy now

can't think straight

I asked God to take away my pain.
God said, No.
'It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.'

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, No.
'Her spirit was whole, her body was only temporary.'

I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, No.
'Patience is a byproduct of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is earned.'

I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, No.
'I give you blessings. Happiness is up to you.'

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No.
'Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.'

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, No.
'You must grow on your own, but I will prune you to make you fruitful.'

I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.
God said, No.
'I will give you life so that you may enjoy all things.'

I asked God to help me love others, as much as he loves me.
God said...
'Ahhhh, finally you have the idea.'




At the end of life we will not be judged by how many diplomas we have received, how much money we have made, how many great things we have done.

We will be judged by 'I was hungry and you gave me to eat, I was naked and you clothed me, I was homeless and you took me in.'

Hungry not only for bread -- but hungry for love. Naked not only for clothing -- but naked for human dignity and respect. Homeless not only for want of a room of bricks -- but homeless because of rejection. -Mother Teresa