Heart Beat

heart beat.
small, fast , rhythmic......
warm my heart.........fulfill my life........complete my existence.
my new religion..........

May Be Baby?!?!

i'm watching that show on CNA.
they are discussing about the procreating for Singaporean.
coincidentally, i just had a mail from HR for revised maternity "benefits".
at first i didn't look thoroughly, but one word caught my eyes.
it said that to be able to benefit from the "new benefits", the child must be a "SINGAPOREAN" and parents must be legally married.
WHAT THE.................
i'm working in an "INTERNATIONAL" working environment.
95% of ppl surrounded me are not Singaporean.
and what with that "legally married" thing?
can they be any more discriminate to the single mothers?
i wonder who the hell make up those ridiculous rules in the first place.

its not surprising that even their citizens are not keen on having children when they don't look out for their keens.
its so true, this ,so called, country has no soul at all.
its an efficient , uptight company with miles and miles of red tape and that national religion "KIASUISM"

that old woman in that show say she doesn't care if her man doesn't hold the door for her.
she said what important is if the man stand besides her in difficult times, it will be enough
i feel sorry for her. :)
doesn't she realize that such gesture can only come from heart?
i know that westerners are taught to be polite and asian men are brought up with a notion of superiority above females.
and when an Asian man shows such gestures towards a woman, it can only mean he really cares for her both with his conscious and subconscious mind.
she has such a typical old Asian housewives' air.
LOL

still got things on my mind about that.
may be i'll post later. or may be not.
but it really amuse me that Singaporean trying to procreate their mutant kids ( i call them mutant because their feelings are mutated over the time :D all they care is how to live life comfortably )

THE IT PPL I KNOW :D

1) Project Manager is a Person who thinks nine women can deliver a baby in One month.

2) Developer is a Person who thinks it will take 18 months to deliver a Baby.

3) Onsite Coordinator is one who thinks single woman can deliver nine babies in one month.

4) Client is the one who doesn't know why he wants a baby.

5) Marketing Manager is a person who thinks he can deliver a baby even if no man and woman are available.

6) Resource Optimization Team thinks they don't need a man or woman; they'll produce a child with zero resources.

7) Documentation Team thinks they don't care whether the child is delivered, they'll just document 9 months.

8) Quality Auditor is the person who is never happy with the PROCESS to Produce a baby.

9) Tester is a person who always tells his wife that this is not the Right baby.

YIKES!

Oh My God!
i think sometimes i even forget to breath
to0 effing damn bz

Anniver....

On a more cheery note, just a few weeks back, him and I dabbed the sweat off our foreheads and heaved a huge sigh of relief, as we pat ourselves on the back for surviving yet another year with each other. :D

i doubt that he enjoyed it though :P
i always give him a hard time . be it going out or staying in. heeeeeeeee
then again I AM A W.O.M.A.N
surely a guy in relationship for that long should know that being "problematic" is what makes us"charming", yes?(flutter eyelashes ;) )
:P:P

but ....i don't think that the highly agonized one will put the word "charming" and my name in the same sentence without the adj "NOT" in between....heeeeee

anyway....he's my prince...not so charming, my knight in rusty armour.
HAHAHA.

luv ya, hon ( i think )

IF

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

by Rudyard Kipling

KISS ME GOODBYE

We choose it without music
Love is never quite the same
I love you now I've lost you
Don't feel bad, you're not too blame

So kiss me goodbye and I'll try not to cry
All the tears in the world won't change your mind
There's someone new and she's waiting for you
Soon your heart will be leaving me behind

Linger a while and I'll go with a smile
Like a friend who just happened to call
For the last time pretend you are mine
My darling kiss me goodbye

I know now I must go now
Though my heart tells me to stay
That girl means your tomorrow
I belong to yesterday

So kiss me goodbye and I'll try not to cry
All the tears in the world won't change your mind
There's someone new and she's waiting for you
Soon your heart will be leaving me behind
Linger a while and I'll go with a smile
Like a friend who just happened to call
For the last time pretend you are mine
My darling kiss me goodbye
My darling kiss me goodbye
Goodbye